I don't know. The mind is strange. But you sound like a man struggling terribly.
[He puts aside the charcoal and picks up a small pair of scissors, snipping neatly. Very quietly,]
I told you, when we met, that sometimes we didn't have enough food as children. If there was only enough for one, usually I'd give it to Kel. I tried to - protect him from the worst of it, when I could. Protect him from knowing how desperate we were, sometimes.
But there were days, if I didn't eat, then I wouldn't have the strength to work. And the next day there would be no food for anyone. I hated myself so much, for that. For not being better, somehow. But he turned out alright in the end.
Putting someone else first doesn't mean putting yourself aside. Not entirely. It can't.
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[He puts aside the charcoal and picks up a small pair of scissors, snipping neatly. Very quietly,]
I told you, when we met, that sometimes we didn't have enough food as children. If there was only enough for one, usually I'd give it to Kel. I tried to - protect him from the worst of it, when I could. Protect him from knowing how desperate we were, sometimes.
But there were days, if I didn't eat, then I wouldn't have the strength to work. And the next day there would be no food for anyone. I hated myself so much, for that. For not being better, somehow. But he turned out alright in the end.
Putting someone else first doesn't mean putting yourself aside. Not entirely. It can't.